(to the tune of john lennon's "and so this is christmas")and so this is fifty, and what have you done? another year older, you're still under the gun. so happy, happy, birthday, tack another year on, let's hope it's a good one- my life's far from done.
so .. this IS 50. i've never been hung up on big number birthdays before. i don't actually think that the number is the problem here. i think it's the hook that i'm hanging everything else that's whacked in my life on. since i was up late last night driving D2 to an improv performance i was still awake when the clock struck 12. so the dad, D2, and S3 all wished me well on the dot. then the phone rang with best wishes from dearest S2, who was midway through his return from florida to michigan. (his first spring break! sigh) he is a sweetie, and his thoughtfulness bore me to sleep without any birthday nightmares. it's early yet. we'll see what the day brings.